We are the nobodies we want to be somebodies

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 01:02:39 GMT

Oh, the times.

Claire, Andy and Kristy came over tonight.
It was enjoyable.
Forreal.
I love them alll.

After Kristy left we played some MAD PICTIONARYYY.
It was good, it was real good.

"Well...Andy's the only one here who's actually fondled a penis before sooo..."

"Jenny...I'M GOING TO MAKE YOU EAT MY VAGINA!"
"YAY! Oh, wait...."

Aghh.
Life is good, life is good. I'm genuinely happy right now, and it really excites me. I've always been a generally happy person, it's just that nothing has really been getting in the way right now. I'm always paranoid, like usualy. Paranoid of losing my friends, paranoid of changing, paranoid of everything. Especially now that Maura and I have sort of drifted apart, it scares the shit out of me that the friends that I have now might not be the friends that I have a year from now. And with Claire leaving for college next year...

I need to read October Sky. It's due really soon and I haven't even started it, heh.

My mouth feels sticky right now.

My classes next year are sooooo good, let me tell you. I am fucking ex-site-ted. McClain recommended me for that 11th grade writing class...I'm taking psychology...honors everything and AP World History...Studio Art II...oh yeah, and I need one more elective, because I'm not taking lunch. It's good, it's realll good.

I started "Catch 22" because I remember someone said it was good?
I like it so far.

Bye.

Kay

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 22:23:58 GMT

Uhh
I'm starting something resembling RTP [my sisters thing] at school.
It's theatre stuff.
Uhh...

IM me -- artofactingxweak

Pleasepleaseplease?

Avenged Sevenfold

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 22:29:58 GMT

IS COMING ON MAY 14TH

EEEEEEEEEE =D

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 02:43:05 GMT

And if I leave, what if it doesn't work?
What if I regret it?
What if it's a mistake?

I surely can't turn back then...

"What If's..." tend to be a bit useless. Make a decision and stick with it eh?
"What If's..." just make you nervous.
Upset.
Confused.

I went to dinner with the family last night...boy, do siblings really know how to make you feel bad about yourself...
The fact is, I know I could be motivated. I know I could care. I know I could acheive...but I don't.

Maybe that's why Cory's words hit me so hard.
When I talk to my parents, they just tend to make me mad. Maybe it's the fact that I respect my sister so fucking much that I actually convince myself that what she's saying is true.

I know that I'm not a bad person.
Highschool bullshit doesn't affect me the way it does to most kids.
But, it does affect me. Which makes me pretty angry.

On a gooood note, I'M 15th IN MY CLASS.
As in, I beat out 377 other kids.
*Boasts for a while longer*
Ahha!

John Irving is a genius, by the way.
I went through a pretty big period of time this year where I didn't read much, and John Irving made me read again.
Goodgoodgooooood.

I want college.